suffocating 

the feeling started as just a queasyness in my stomach. 
a small tremble, a quivering thought in my head begins to form. as 
time went by, the feeling grew into one of pure uneasyness and 
anxiousness in my heart. it expanded till i could feel the tears 
forming in my eyes. tears that refused to be shed without a perfectly 
good reason. tears that my heart longed to spill. longing to put an 
end to this choking feeling in me, engulfing me and swallowing me 
whole until i couldn't breathe. it was all for you.