my bones are aching
ribs poking out through my 
acid green shirt
wrists so tiny

i live in a dreamworld
reality is too much
i am too pale
too fat

life is too much
tears soak my insides
i adjust the straps of my bra
always slipping down my arms

i don't recognize myself
have i changed that much?
older, sadness filled eyes
glints of mischief

i want to take your clothes off.
and it was only because of how much 
i love you. and how much
i want you to see me again
for the first time.